Two weeks ago today – after four and a half months of trials, tribulations and transfusions – I had my final round of chemo.
But before I talk about that, let me go back a bit…
As you all know, cycle number four was very problematic, so I had a lower (read: normal) dose of chemo for the last two cycles. My side effects were not as harsh as they were before – I still suffered from muscle and joint pain, but at least my nerves did not feel like they were on fire every minute.
The day of my final chemo session was quite eventful. On that morning I was told that my neutrophil (white blood cell count) was too low for me to have chemo, so I had a blood test to see if there was any change in my results – if not, then my chemo would be postponed for a week. I was in two minds about this. I’d pretty much written off having chemo that day because I thought there would be no considerable change in my blood count to give me the go ahead; but I also wanted to have chemo on that day and ring the bell to signal that I’d finished. I saw so many other cancer sufferers have the pleasure of ringing the brass bell outside the chemo suite and I often imagined the day that it would be my turn. So when my nurse called back couple of hours later and said my neutrophil had increased to an appropriate level and it was all systems go, I was pleasantly surprised (well, not pleasantly because chemo isn’t pleasant).
So off I went back to the hospital and several hours later I. Rang. That. Bell (and got a round of applause).
Reaching the last chemo cycle is like being on a long-haul flight: you’ve been on the plane for hours, you’re fed up, cannot sleep properly and feel uncomfortable (probably because you haven’t got enough legroom). Then, the captain comes over the tannoy and says, ‘We are now making our descent towards our destination,’ and everyone is overjoyed before rushing to the toilet to freshen up.
When I finished, my main feelings were of happiness and relief. I still remember my consultant telling me last year that chemo would be for four-and-a-half months and thinking that it sounded an age away. But despite all the setbacks and sickness, the time went quite quickly. Each cycle had me settle into a routine where I felt like shit for the first week or two post-chemo, then slowly began to get better before knuckling down for another cycle and its rank side effects.
But that part of my treatment is now done and I’m very thankful.
Radiotherapy is up next, but I have to wait until my last chemo cycle is fully out of my system before I start. I’m fine about it and not nervous – unlike how I was before I started chemo. I’m feeling positive and hoping that helps see me through. Wish me luck!